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It's kinda awkward to talk about personal stuff like this, but I'll try...

If I'm not mistaken I knew I was attracted to boys since early grades. My dad's father (=grandpa = 'pa) was still alive. I had and probably still have a sick mind.

My 'pa was often drunk. And when he was drunk, he was sleeping a lot. I was and still am very attached to my grandparents because I used to live with them when I was a little kid. Their house was not a big one, that's why I used to sleep with my 'pa most of the times. And when he was sleeping I was a wicked kid as in I was doing things like touching him in intimate parts, checking his intimate parts etc. There was a short when I did this with my dad too, but then I started checking out other people/things. I didn't want to be caught doing these things.

Now, I recall seeing my first porn movie. I was fascinated of... how BIG they were. My parents still have the DVD. I did check that movie again since then and every time I see it I recall this moment and enjoy it, even if it's a straight porn movie. And I still think they are HUGE! Hot movie, indeed!

I don't know if the shame to show your body in public might also be a sign you're gay or that's only how I am, but I still have huge complex for pissing in the public toilets. Maybe this will change as the fact that I was ashamed to undress myself in public changed too. Before high school I had this complex too, yeah. Now I am enjoying hair legs, cute boxers and nice asses =)).

How and when did you know you were straight/gay/bisexual?

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E cam ciudat sã scriu despre chestii asa personale. Dar voi încerca...

Dacã îmi aduc eu aminte, stiam cã mã atrag bãietii încã de prin clasele primare, cred cã poate chiar mai înainte. Trãia încã bunicul meu din partea tatãlui (=tataie). Am avut o minte cam bolnavã când am fost mic, ce-i drept, recunosc. Nici acum nu e mai sãnatoasã, nu vã faceti sperante...

Tataie o mai avea cu bãutura. Iar când el bea, dormea mult. Destul de mult. Eram foarte atasat de bunicii mei pentru cã am locuit cu ei încã de când aveam 3-4 ani. Casa lor nu era foarte mare, de aceea dormeam cu bunicul meu de multe ori. Iar când el dormea (din diferite motive, vezi mai sus XD) eu îmi fãceam de cap. De exemplu, mã lipeam de el, îi puneam mâna prin pãrti intime, mã uitam prin pantalonii lui. Cam la fel a fost si cu tata o foarte scurtã perioadã de timp, dupã, am început sã mã uit prin alte pãrti. Mi-era teamã sã nu fiu prins.

Îmi aduc aminte prima datã când am vãzut un film porno. Ai mei erau la serviciu, iar bunicii îsi fãceau de treabã prin curte. Eram fascinat de... cât de mari erau! Ai mei încã mai au DVD-ul si uneori mai revãd filmul. Încã am impresia cã sunt mari. Oricum, hot filmul! =))

Nu stiu dacã si rusinea de a îti arãta zonele intime în public a reprezentat un semn cã as fi gay sau doar asa sunt eu, însã eu încã am un complex de a-mi face nevoia la pisoare în toaletele publice. Poate cu timpul se va estompa. Înainte de liceu aveam un complex si în a mã dezbrãca în fata bãietilor, dar asta a dispãrut la liceu, din cauza vestiarelor. Acum mã bucur de privelisti (aka par pe picioare, boxeri draguti si cururi sexy.)

Voi cum v-ati dat seama cã sunteti straight/gay/bisexuali (sau orice altceva) ?


~Rob "Paint your own Life and Live in your own world."